Spiritual Journey
Recently I found a quote about hope that really spoke to my heart.  Steve has had Parkinson's Disease for almost 23 years and it feels pretty hopeless sometimes.  I get so tired. I'm not sure if I am emotionally, spiritually, or physically tired . More than likely it is all three ways.
I want to follow Jesus with my whole heart. Sometimes I feel alone and like a stepchild with Him. I know in my head that He loves me, that He will take care of me and that I am His child. Sometimes getting that into my heart is hard to do.  We have a hard time financially  Steve struggles physically and I struggle with patience. Sometimes I want to scream, leave or just give up.
OK, I know we can do this, we can make it.
Here is the quote.
"Hope does not disappoint us, because I've spent years bracing myself against disappointment, refusing to hope because I've been afraid of being let down. By others and by God. I haven't wanted to "get my hopes up" because I've been afraid of being disappointed. If you set your hopes low, you can be pleasantly surprised if anything good happens. I guess it is a way of hardening your heart. A way of resisting the love of God that has been generously poured out through the Holy Spirit. Poured out. Not measured out by teaspoons. Poured. An image of abundance.
What has suffering produced in me, it hasn't been endurance and character and hope in me. Instead suffering has produced resignation, which steadily and stealthily eroded my hope. Help me anchor my hope in you, Lord. Not in any particular outcome, but in you, in your love."